It is Week 2 of the new sem. Not a very exciting semester though. The subjects are total strangers to me and I am actually worrying how am I going to go through the next 12 weeks. *groans*

A penny for your thoughts

Can you believe that malaysian nottingham campus actually provides shuttle buses every 30 minutes to kajang's ktm? The fare is included in the fees. Oh boy, that is like so... good! Whats the use? Hardly anyone uses those buses, they have cars on their own. Rich kids. What do I have here? A rapid kl bus that hardly comes on time.

I haven't been doing much for my quiet time lately. What I do most of the time: Take out the bible and material, pause for a while, start reading the verses for the day, read and close with prayer. Sleep. I don't know about the rest of the world but doing quiet time is as if becoming a burden for me. Now, that means bad news. It is so easy to get distracted. I'm feeling that I'm moving God way down in my priority list. Am I getting backslided? Am I going to send God away from me in the near future? Ahhh... scary thoughts that never seem to make myself to make any changes. All these are like empty talk. Bah...

Anyway, was reading this material about looking after the weak. Okay, I may not know many weak people but I also know that this means talking and caring those who are not as loved as us. Okay, that might be a lil' dramatic. Put it simple, the people around us. The people who are not in the "gang". I see lots of those in utar here. People who walks alone, who eats alone. There are times I do want to keep them company, talk to them, get to know them more. I know such phenomenom happens everywhere. From families to church to school. I do talk to them once in a while, but automatically I will be pulled to the more happening people and forget those who are not.

This thought comes to my mind. Everyone is lonely. It is just at a different degree of loneliness. I mean I'm lonely too. I guess everyone have a different way of dealing it. Some will go to their online games for solitude whereas others might find tat being in relationships solve the problem. Okay, I'm getting away from the point.

So anyway, what is the right thing to do? Jesus took care of those not loved by the society. Its like the whole WWJD thingy. Yes, it reminds us that we should be like Jesus. But do we actually apply it? In such conditions, I don't think the saying "it is the thought that counts" can be used. We are not perfect, we can't do things that Jesus wants us to do all the time. With that comes another question, how do we know what Jesus wants us to do?

You know what I think? I think christianity is kinda controversy. Answers lead to questions. I've been thinking about it for a long time. The more I think about it, the more further I'm staying away from God. Does such questions matter? In some ways, yeah. But questions may either break you or make you. I want to stay with God but that doesn't mean I will stop searching for answers to my questions. How can I do it? I'm not sure, but I'm sure that the Holy Spirit will move me according to His will. I just got to hang on with Him, bearing in mind that His love conquers all.

p/s: a bit long, I'm not too sure what I wrote but just blogging out what I am feeling at the moment. Hehehe...

Isn't it sad when you are in the process of knowing someone and before you can actually get to know him better, hes gone for good? My uncle, the uncle from hongkong passed away just two days ago. His death wasn't a surprise because two days before his death, we were expecting it. He had three operations in a week! Three. I don't know why did the doctors actually allow something like that to happen. Three times a week is way too much. My family is very sad about it because he is a very dear relative to us. Personally, he and his family are the only relatives I'm actually fond of. My dad broke the news to me when I was having my favourite double cheeseburger. That was my worst burger meal.

On a happier note, I was back in ipoh for a week when the rest of the people came back as well. I didn't get to spend much time with the church gang because my unimates came to ipoh for a three-day visit. Once they left, sisters came back and have to spend time with the family as well. Well, wendy finally left for singapore. She hugged everyone except for me. Sheesh. Her boyfriend was asking, "You're not going to give her a hug?" The response to save face was, "What for? I will see her very often." Hahah.. I hope she won't stumble into this blog. Its weird for her leaving. I don't feel like going to bandar utama now. Its not like she accompany me everytime I'm there but it feels like lacking of something. I hardly see Jerrica except during allowance time. Laiyee is busy with work as well. Perhaps I should organize a sister-bonding meal.

Three more weeks to final. I hope time flies really fast this time. I'm praying hard that I won't have to sit for the supplementary paper because that will cost me my holiday and christmas. No way. Christmas in sungai long? Pathetic. Really have to study hard and do well for my first semester. Do encourage me people. I'll be very grateful for that.

Overdue pictures

Presenting...

our mooncake fiesta which passed a long time ago...

The building is the UTAR's faculty of accountancy and management. Small, but easy to get around.

one of our wacky pictures in class...